Went for my 1st ‘professional’ reading in more than a decade last night. One of the 1st things the chick said about me was that I have strong psychic abilities and spirit help around me, and that I could do what she was doing (ie read cards). Then, she asked if I could, and I said, ‘yes’, and she looked exasperated and amazed. ‘Why aren’t you doing this?!’

‘Responsibility, risk, and not wanting to mess with my own head,’ I told her, and she said that what she does is tell people that she’s seen something, but that its up to them what they do with it.

‘Okay’, I thought.

Then, she told me I’d be good at psychology or hypnotism, urged me to get into the latter, and said that I’d learned some hard lessons through the Tarot, and should be teaching others.

Of course, my ego wants to believe these things, and I often dream of doing something with it… being a successful psychic or getting into psychology… you know… helping people… but I don’t know how to see myself doing anything but failing.

Guess I’ve got to work on that.