‘forever’s really very short
no matter what the fools report
‘today’ is all we ever truly have

that promises are just sweet words
delicate as fragile birds
oft’ blown off course, or crushed by fickle winds

and love is just a fantasy
a false hope from our infancy
for rescue from our innate loneliness

truth is…

loyalty is bought and sold
cheaper than the dullest gold
souls are spent – like money – out of hand

that trust is just a spider’s web
spun about our sleeping heads
dashed as soon as eyes are opened wide

and happiness is lack of ‘need’
‘want of nothing’ is its seed
people… things… don’t bring it to our lives

truth is…

truth is bitter, stark, and cold
too much of it makes me feel old
why’d I have to write this stupid poem?

You are my drug
The sight of you excites me – longing and dread
You’re in my flesh, the memory of your touch
In my heart, the love and hate of you
You’re in my head
You alter my reality
Make nothing into something
You reject me, neglect me
Call it love
And make it all okay
With or without you, I’m empty
I die
So I’ll quit you
Somehow I’ll find the strength
Get past the shakes, the loneliness
Make myself see
That all the hope in the world
Won’t make ‘us’ right
I deserve better
And I’ll be okay

A piece’o’poem I started for my dear friend ‘Witchy’ who sometimes disappears into nevermore ; )

I didn’t know what I was in for
when I walked out on the shore
and herd the voice say ‘nevermore’
whispered waves of nevermore…

Blast this lake and it’s environs
calling out like wicked sirens
calling me to nevermore
beckoning to nevermore…

Each day I struggle to resist
else I know I shan’t exist
if I give in to nevermore
I’ll see the daylight nevermore…

Mirror, mirror, on the wall

Why do I have to hear them all

The judgements… words that, once they’re said

Will always echo in my head

Too fat, too thin, at different times

Too weak, too strong, in other’s minds

Too short, too tall, unfeminine

Too scarred, my life writ’ on my skin

If I could stop that litany

Perhaps, for once, I’d just see me

And maybe then, I’d like me too

The way that others seem to do

Greenman, why do you grin so?
Is there something I should know?
Carved into this wooden pew,
I think it’s I – should laugh at you!
Since you are trapped inside this place
While I can leave, by God’s good Grace.

Little man, the day will dawn
When you and your new god are gone
Then once again, my roots will grow
And my true face will freely show
So please excuse this little smile
If I’m amused to wait a while

I walk alone along the strand
sinking into sugared sand
drawn ever onward to the shore

mirror still, the surface lays
moonlight streams across the bay
an alabaster bridge to ‘Nevermore’

wading out beyond the beach
I see a face and hands that reach
my lover come to tease me, I am sure

beckoning, she spreads her arms
her smile speaks of wanton charms
my blood boils with a sudden aching need

down I dive to claim a kiss
wanting naught but this sweet bliss
I follow deeper still beneath the lake

suddenly, I’m all alone
feel my heart sink like a stone
seeing truth too late to save my life

shining down from high above
I see the visage of my love
’tis but the moon, that’s smiling down on me

This is one that gave me trouble. I felt that it had more to it, but just couldn’t decide – or finish it…

in my essence I am simple
just a copacetic ripple
in the great expanse of cosmic energy

but in this state there is no learning
so I sometimes get the yearning
to take a form with some solidity

I will myself to birth
on the planet known as earth
become a member of humanity

what a thrill to have these senses!
in this form where soul condenses
to know the thrill of this mortality

I also tried it like this…

in my essence I am simple
just a copacetic ripple
in the great expanse of cosmic energy

but in this state there is no learning
so I sometimes get the yearning
to take on a form with some solidity

I will myself to birth
on the planet known as earth
become a member of humanity

though ‘body’ limits our perception
we can work toward perfection
living out each possibility

each time you ride the wheel
you can choose to harm or heal
find the profound in what appears simplicity